Necessity may give birth to invention, but the mother of art is frustration. If you want to build a strong vocabulary in an artistic medium, you must achieve frustration. Fail at it. Badly. Repeatedly.
If my current frustration level with metal clay is any indication, I’m about to become the DaVinci of PMC.
Here’s what I’m telling myself: This is fine. If I succeeded on every try, if every piece came out of the kiln in perfect shape, what would I learn? Zippo. Nada. Nothing.
All that wasted time, materials, effort, ruined designs? Pure knowledge, baby. The more I fail, the more determined I am to beat this annoying, sticky stuff, and the more I learn.
When I get it right…the heavens burst forth with artly song.
You’d think, after making art all my life, I’d understand this process. I’ve been failing in my chosen medium, glass, for more than 20 years. Every crumbled mold, unexpected color reaction, thermal shock breakapart, explosion (yep, explosion), distorted shape, crunchy blob on the hotshop floor is yet another phrase in the language of glass.
20 years in, I speak glass pretty well, even fluently sometimes. I no longer think about how to say it in glass, I just say it, and know it will work. I can concentrate on the art in my vision instead of arguing with the material.
Now I’m arguing with metal clay. We don’t trust each other yet. I’m still following directions but occasionally getting a blobby mess where I expected a pristine sculpture. I can’t speak its language without help.
Correction: I THINK I’m following directions when stuff fails. Sometimes the experts writing those directions assume that everyone knows THAT, and leave out important little details. Nothing slams you into the frustration zone faster than missing steps in your instruction sheet.
I’ve gotten so used to glass fluency that I’d forgotten this. Forgotten that manufacturers of art materials frequently use “easy,” “simple,” and “beginner.” If you’re completely new to the sport, though, “easy” is a long way away.
Sigh. All those disappointed glassist newbies holding out their broken bowls to me for diagnosis when it was sooooo “obvious.” I’m shuddering at my visible impatience now that the shoe’s on the other foot. I hope I’ve learned my lesson.
Certainly the metal clay world is being patient with MY frustration zone. People who work in this medium are every bit as wonderful as those in the glass world, maybe even more because it’s so new. I can post my woes on Facebook and receive 10-12 useful responses within 24 hours.
Even better, I’m discovering friends who turn out to be certified metal clay instructors, blacksmiths, goldsmiths, silversmiths. Immensely helpful.
Big issue right now: I can’t fire (so far) anything that isn’t silver. I haltingly speak the language of silver clay, but I’m totally mute when it comes to bronze, copper, steel, and brass.
Not one single base metal test tile, sculpture, pendant, vessel, etc., has come out of my kiln in usable shape. Not ONE.
So for the time being I’m practicing in silver at $1.60/gram to bronze clay’s 24 cents/gram, because I can at least get something out of the kiln intact for gifts or testing concepts. Obviously, unless I suddenly inherit a fortune this can’t continue.
Besides, my ultimate goal is to sculpt in colored alloys of bronze, copper, and steel, making small-scale vessel frameworks to combine with my pate de verre sculpture. I love silver, but it’s too expensive and monochromatic to use for these projects.
I’ve posted my failures on Facebook and gotten marvelous help. My last pieces were recognizably bronze and copper, but still unacceptable.
“What kind of charcoal are you using?”
“Uhm…the stuff I found on Amazon: Activated charcoal for aquarium filters.”
“No, no, NO: That isn’t the RIGHT charcoal. You need to use coconut-shell carbon, or MAGIC carbon, or one of the charcoals made especially for firing.”
So… buying more charcoal, readying test tiles. We’ll see if that solves the problem. If it doesn’t, I’ve got a whole list of other stuff to try from my online metalhead friends.
With any luck, I’ll have some really nice pieces I can use with my OTHER new medium: Enameling.